Oh, 22 views on my Friendster, hmmm kinda weird,,, the last time i checked it was only 15 so there's 7 peeps who had view my account, hmmm let me check,, wow it seems that my College friends had missed Me and they took time to look at my F.S (friendster) account ^_^. But wait.
Oh no , she also visited my account, her name? uhmmmm i wonder how she was.. i wonder if she still thinks Of Me, Sheila Martin is her name... suddenly the memory came rushing through 2/12 years Back in time....
2 1/2 years Ago:
I love you but i can't take this anymore, you fooled me not only once, my parents doest like her and so is her parents, we broke the day before our college graduation. At first i can not feel any pain, i thought that maybe i don't love her that much, i didn't even cry, i was so proud of my self after graduation coz i didn't spare any tears and even a single thought for her.
But you know what i realized after 2 1/2 years? i just find myself writing my very own First blog Thinking of Her, Asking a lot of questions and throwing tons of "What Ifs", I'm the Looser on this Battle, i thought i already moved On, But until Now I'm the same Person she Left 2 1/2 Years ago...........
the Very First Poem i created For her:
Pain and sorrow, heartache that overflow
Times i wanted to give up, sick and tired from all those bad luck;
keep on believing that love is for real
but the wounds is so deep its hard to heal;
Days passed by at blink of an eye
still searching and asking WHY?;
God is good, God is great,
saying that i should hold tighter to my faith;
Answered prayer came one day
still confused cant deny dismay;
Is she or isn't she not
Cracking my head and makes me nuts;
Blessing that Ive had receive
miracle that i couldn't believe;
Sheila was her name,
Tall and pretty, worth for fame;
An Angel who lifts me up on the wings of Love
Showed me that i can reach the sky above;
I thought Life isn't fair
learned my lesson that everyone has a pair;
Thanking you for stepping into my Life
and You are the reason why i survive;
Sheila my Life and my Soul
You're Love is the music that makes me whole;
I hope that we last and never fall apart;
But if you can't stay forever and returned to me never
I'll let you fly even if it means saying Goodbye
Hoping someday you'll be back to the little boy you've
Once Loved.....
Is It really true that "the reason why we are suffering is not because the love is ended, but because it still continues even after love is Totally over"
This is ME
